BIG MOOLAR!

 A pal of mine, more like Ken’s friend and him, taught me how to dream big, big money, big house just “big”. They taught me never to keep saying for now to mean no moolar for now!, It becomes “forever” do not be afraid to dream big you never know when opportunity will come knocking, you got to have planned for it or how??!!

You know I have had this tendency of 'returning myself' or do I say fearing to dream big money even before the small one is not within vicinity. I like consoling myself that’s its being realistic but as I was told, “what you proclaim {power of the tongue) happens so".

At times we could hold a conversation with Ken and out of the blues he mentions,” where can I get half an M right now I do , 1,2,3 things? Am like, “dude!>>….do you know if such money were to drop from above and landed on my feet (jobless corner dreamers kinda reasoning, don’t mind!!}I would have a ‘culture shock’??maybe I’d sweat all over, take afew, store the rest and first hit the locals to absorb shock and also scroll my phone book for ‘company’*wink* kinda maskini akipata…… heng heng…..!

But why do people I meet(I’ve met quite a number) find the pleasure from to lay bare money factors or the money thing, how big monied or connected they are?? Is it that I look of that chaste too and now they “cock sizing” or what or for the mere intimidation,?? like the PM told me “huyo mtu anaanza kukushow kuhusu venye budake ana doo ni kukuintimidate na most ni mafantasy anaweza like uwe kwa hiyo position uko to be intimidated all through ili abaki akikushow hivo, unadhani ukiwa na doo atataka hata uwe beshte yake, na venye hana any, ni mafantasy tu?!! he he,..

How do you start imagining of half an M even before you have handled the 20 shillings? Ee”any way bla bla alot of her own version of the story but I listen for she has  a 'point' right’’’’? eh. By the way I say  if there 's among others, reason I cannot afford to 'lalia' is because I live with a very intelligent PM to detect my cheekiness too and "always try to get ahead of competition or else you‘ll be wiped out of market",  he he... get my drift??

For him and his buddy they were like, “would do all the positives with the cash” grow another,>> he he, whereas maybe just to be on the safer side, i would get a financial manager or did I forget my 'PM' and give her some, failure to that is squandering, maybe I’d leave a mark of generosity to all the 'lablers' of wakathangos as 'mean’ to be proven otherwise mostly in each bar I visit and all the persons of out that love such impressions will be onlist. Huuu!!.

At other times Ken will go like, "dude  find yourself like 20k for fuel we go shagz over the weekend”, take note that’s just 'fuel’ and am like, “dude ,, do you know that’s somebody’s salary for a whole month!!” I keep telling myself maybe my background (humble abode) is what make me feel so intimidated per say, by such talk of big money. But I say some of these hallucinious people, how do you start imagining of half a million even before you have the little 20 shilling that you’ve worked for and earned and the situation you are in does not look like dropping that miracle of big money on your door step. First you say of how monied you are azin (family wise ) or were but now the reality is 'its not there'!, for I believe also people with such hallucinations “come from somewhere” but its like “running even before you crawl!!

To drive the point home they started to explain to me of their real life experiences, I guess I can be the next Jeff by making people speak of ‘the story of their lives’ on the bench or something. Story for another day.

Onto my story, I guess I went to school (read campus mostly) more in the name of pleasing my peros' kinda thing more than the course i had taken of my life after the adult mark or what I had planned to do with my life after hi skul rather but all the more grateful because it has given me time to grow, mature and discover myself but all the more important I did not disappoint them. After all I got a chance to and learn how to love what I was sent to do, 'aik' a living for myself and the peroz expectations cannot fall short of that 'be independent'. Education is the only thing given to me .

The other day my old lady called and she was like, “dude you are joking, you still haven’t got yourself a job??  Ee the ration that your zack gives shall be cut off soon because you are now joking!!” that explains how high their expectations are and to mention the old man who knows it can be tight mostly living with a woman and chips in kiasi, but she had to highlight that for me to see the seriousness though I hardly ask for it (ration) for the shame more and less of a man that 'desires his own' and also mindful of other siblings.

I refuse to know the current Kenyan or worldwide living conditions of unemployment rates among the youth, corruption in job placements and other bad lucks. But I tell them (more of old lady) 'appointed time' is coming. Very soon their worries shall be over!! In fact then it will be, “why you never come see us?? For the busy schedule!!,