Sexual disorientation!!

Ever been so disoriented from zegz you wonder what is wrong? has someone made your nyees disappear or something?, Even the PM will wonder with you but the usual suspect reason she'll think of is that "Tobiko" is occupying your mind. They'll always suspect infidelity. Why is it that most of our women folk treasure or adore sex (read with their men) whom they have wholly devoted to give the cookie to for its secure and understood by society. Statistics have it that more men are coerced to zegz by their loved ones!.

By the way who is this 'society'? its you and i. I guess the reason they will cry and pester for the zegz even daily or hourly, is for the fact that they believe we men live by sex or something , that that is the only way to show commitment to them, though i suspect others are clever they'll do so to drain your balls and no matter how much that "Tobiko" will want your josto you cannot raise for exhaustion. Anyway this can be contested from various quarters of different experiences, for there are those that are entrepreneural, addicts and cannot go without a josto in their cookies.

Ever wondered if zegz was to last that long maybe like how dogs 'stick to each other' only this time for longer periods like all day, people would never go to work, school or anywhere nor look for food, if at all it would be the only thing in this world. I find myself asking the pm this after a certain duration of disorientation crops in , "kwani sex is the only thing?", while she's there crying, "i want to come,! just the way you make me feel!". I wonder, in her mind she never factors in that something does happen to people , 'God forbid !' paralysis, depressions, or other diseases or calamities of life. in such situations would she still stick by you ? i wonder ,and ask her too.

When a woman knows that she is your weakness and she's gotten into your head, that woman can trample you the way she wants and feels like, thats when a woman will have the guts even to introduce you to her even hotter friends for she knows you are in her box under tight key and lock!. she'll ask for anything, go wherever with whomever she'll feel like and still come back to you amidst open arms, though this is an individual thing, but look around you'll find you either a victim or immediate neighbour is,.. and wonder!!

This gospel according to philosopher Mulama, but also reminds me of similar statement told to me by a person of out in campus days over my boy aty, "Unacheki Dan hawezi enda mahali, anaweza toka tu kwa me kumwambia!" how deplorable situation can a man live by under such conditions??. Thats why the pm will always feel insecure because she's never gotten me emotionally and always feels there's a part of me she's never known and will never be ready to admit or give in, not now that she's still young and in the ages of insecurities, i even dread the day she'll discover this 'many dots will become lines'>>get the drift?!!.

Moreso now that she can be termed as the 'breadwinner' you got to be the 'man' always and play your cards wisely  hata kama ni chini ya meza,. The other day as we pinted with philosopher /hr Mulama who recently met my pm and daug after all those years we've been buddies and i was like "na venye niliwanga nimeficha white?", he was like, "hata me hukufichia!" and we concluded yenyewe in this life you are by your own, whether you feel that you got a spouse whom your life depends on or peroz, they can die who are you left with?? the world !! by yourself and thus, "saa zingine inabidi white ifichwe!"

At times the pm will always share sentiments, "i dont get you at times,?". and my reply, "you are always want things to go your way, do you at times try to get me and my likes and dislikes, so try to reach out to me too and that way you 'll get to know me and my needs not that all the time am the one succumbing to your needs!"

Anyway on other random thoughts, in any case its good to maintain the consistence and persistence inorder to succeed. Do not get into something with the negative connotation ( read pessimism) but optimism that you'll succeed , if former, then there;s no reason to 'try'!!

After what happened(fire tragedy) i pray the almghty, giver and snatcher of life not to snatch mine or my kin in such a cruel manner, what could man have done to deserve this natural calamity i may say (read painful burning alive)??/ its very sad!!

The other day i had an experience of sort of guyz who use smear campaign to get women. After having introduced a buffalo to some 'buddy' the guy in his mind was thinking he'll slice me but in vain, for to begin with, maybe the buffalo had an 'attachment' but me was 'not there' so on realising this the guy embarked on "smear campaign" just like politicians do to gain a mileage (call it kukatia na jina ya wenyewe). This is so backward i say like telling a woman, "you see that guy he screws barmaids, leave him!". they donno that in today's  women like to hear atleast you got experience (who doesn't?)mschew!!.

Screwers of relationships i call them, they donno some of us are bigger screwers, for gaining and loosing friends is all just a part of this life we live in and there's nothing much within our means that we can do, its like death when it comes calling. So whenever i loose one (mostly these are fellow men, particularly of the smear campaign kind and others who'll see me as a threat to their women) am used to that!. I had to put all these random thoughts as they flowed for memory sake and abit deviate from main theme  i hope yah'all can decipher.