Grateful privilege

My old man always taught me that no matter what situation one is in there's always another in a worse off situation, this one i dont know if it was to cover up for the 'two months application' thing or it was just meant to console in a way but true. Though it's ever said "do not compare yourself with the failures" but reality takes the better of it, (Reality kills dreamers!)he he. I know many including i at some point in life would ask themselves,"why was i not born in a 'Kenyatta'(for example) family??"

I did not make an application to be in this world but as i quote a fact "God drags us all into this world to suffer and then die", its not fair!! but maybe if born in an affluent homestead you would have it easy, a notion that has not been quite proved even by Wakathango. We all tend to think that money can be an end in itself but you'll find the affluent have their own share of earthly suffering too( including hague).
Another just said "money is an empowerment, makes you call the shots!" another said "whomever said money cannot buy you happiness, did not know where to buy it!!"

I thought Interior kajiado was dusty, rough and tough life until i went to Ukambani over the weeekend to see layers of dust, dillapidated roads that are rocky and hilly, and actually in the backyard of an affluent minister who claims to be a reformer and possesses an influential docket of reforms. What other major reforms that could be other that infrustructure in his own backyard?? i ask myself. Atleast am grateful that in my neighbourhood there're signs of rainfall once in a while and an indicator of wealth.

The other day as i walked on the road amidst some drizzles , there was a man infront crawling on the wet ground, i just had to look above and speak to the almighty,"Whomever you are, lord that makes us all equal before your eyes,whether you live above or hang over every being(i believe mine does for the far i have come), you who gives others legs, snatches other's and denies others am grateful for the privilege. Ever wondered as an able bodied what it is to lack majorly sight, sense of hearing and legs?, for a man i mean both of them three?? you are as good as a dead man walking!.

 Many are the times you will see your pm calling for you to avail yourself immediately for what i guess the companionship (read zegz) and fake an 'eadache', no sugar (the current luxury) and she cannot take the tea on the table without and should bring it immediately?? but only to realise her magic stick is what she was calling out for lest you get tempted to give another of her rivals, it better be within reach. You can dare ask her like i do at times, what if you got paralysed would you still be as essential as you are now?,leave for the financial security you could possess!!.

As i reiterated earlier on on 'appointed time' post, am ever grateful for my present parents , they could not possess the financial muscle of the affluent families we would all wish to be born in but atleast they are not divorced, dead or struggling through legal battles (majorly of property) and exposing their dirty linen in public. I also find myself pitying the kids who are also dragged into those dramas they have no clue of.

 Life is a paradox in itself as wakathango i could be worrying why did i domesticate someone so early in life and procreated ?, whereas there's another asking himself why he did not domesticate earlier and another who is trying hard to procreate in vain? But one thing i have come to learn is never to regret any action as a man (kama mbaya mbaya) whichever mind that made you do the regretable is the same one that has carried you through all situations of wise decision and its all yours.

The other day i was with the 'guru' the one guy i know divorced because of campus girls, though he tells me that he wasn't 'bad' until his pm started growing horns and would go out pinting with her friends at will and never at home for him, but i would not be the person to fault any party in that, but i guess there's nothing that isn't communicable!! Although he's one guy that can rival Wanjohi for his climbing prowess(read interms of numbers), he seemed so disturbed, has cut weight (maybe already suffering from a disease), tells me he hasn't seen his kids in an year only pays fees via an account, he couldn't even drink beer in peace despite him flossing of how he got this, i dont know a harrier, a sports and many girlfriends that were all nowhere in the vicinity.

He left amidst claims it had been a long day and was not quite prepared to rave (the guru talking, moreso on a friday) despite him coming all the way for my 2 beers offer, promised to come the following day with like 3 mamas as he calls them and alot of cash ( a thing i never witnessed). In my microscopic God given intellectual psycho reading i could tell he was a disturbed man, only how i wish despite me being almost his 8year junior i can offer a listening ear (that will not necessarily be written here) and an advisory/ 'feel you' piece of mind. And so i may lack the material wealth for now but am ever grateful for the other privileges i have got including pm and ofcourse the ever present jovial baby girl in my life.